Experience 1

So without going into too much unnecessary details and telling my whole life story, i've had a pretty rough life, had alot of misfortunes and bad shit that happened to me, dealt with alot of bullshit, etc etc...

From a personal point of view, i think psychedelics have helped me alot to deal better with my mishaps/misfortunes/whatever and grow as a whole as a person. It has definetely helped me not to snap and committing something(s) i might’ve regretted for the rest of my life, it has helped me become a better version of myself, it has deepened my outlook on everything and nothing, it has sharpened my way of reasoning, made me even better at controlling my emotions, raised and sharpened my ability to question everything around me and to be more in the now. I mean i could go on and on and on, i think it honestly made me a better person because i choose to and that because psychedelics seems to point me in directions in which there is growth to be done. This is how psychedelics have helped and healed me. They helped me mature and enhance alot of skills which does contribute to making my life quality better.

I honestly wish to live in a world where psychedelics aren’t considered as much as a dangerous/horrible/criminal/insert bullshit label thing and are actually respected for their potential to help a person change/grow without the harm and the unnecessary fees that some other routes may lead to.

Experience 2

Its been about 8 years of me using lsd. Whenever I have some money saved up I’d invest and stock up on lsd, as I grew older and stronger in my spiritual self, all the fascination with drugs faded away with time. After abusing mdma and meth and being heavily depressed and suicidal for about 2 years of my life, a seed of spirituality was sown inside of me during my 2 month long trip of wandering around my country looking to break free. You can read all about it above in the other two entries. Although LSD has been close to my heart ever since I was first introduced to it, I have abused it during a phase in my life for a year. I stopped consuming it for a while as I couldn’t get my hands on some, naturally. Universe taking its course and changing direction.

Things lined up and it came LSD back to me again after a year or so. I set the intentions right for the future, I promised I will not abuse it again. Heck I become a happy little duck when I stock up on lsd XD. My relationship with this drug is always evolving, I respect it and it respects me. I don’t just trip now, I set intentions and line up things and stage situations for myself to face while tripping, to know myself more and better. I meditate without fail when on acid, its ego death and oneness once the mind calms down.

I was put on adhd medication during my college, as I struggled staying in the college even after excelling the subjects. I feared I’d drop out of college and the psychiatrist after diagnosing adhd, advised and prescribed me 10mg methylphenidate. It made me jittery af! i took those expensive medicines for about 6 months until I quit. I stopped going to my psychiatrist. I researched heavily on microdosing and gathered all info I could, and thought I’d microdose every third day for the rest of my semester. I almost everytime went overboard with it as I wanted to see tiny shifts in my visual, micro became macro, always. First semester on microdosing was trippy lol. I nailed the semester and took a break from microdosing, as I realized that on somedays I would get stuck in a thought loop and I cant break it. I also figured that I had a mood shift/swing the next day of microdosing.

I microdose now, on days I have heavy load of work, the dose being 5-10ug for me. With magnesium rich food for the day. it suits me well and it just gives my brain enough charge to do everything swiftly. Anything above this dose stretches my brain more than needed.

Where am I going with lsd? Alright yo with the grace and kindness of /u/The_Rabbit_Hole I am planning out venturing into 500ug dose, I think I am ready to know myself a little more. My research is on and I am very psyched for it, I am spiritually ready. I have opened people up to lsd who i really feel safe with. When I meet a person or make a connection that has that unspoken comfort and blind trust, I offer them this experience. My mentor wants to try lsd with me. He is 60 and sometimes smoke a joint with me, I work for him and I respect him from the bottom of my heart. I have made my older friends try lsd, who are at the age of 45. Some with kids and wife. PROFOUND! It changes lives I swear.

I Wish to try it with my father one day. Over the course of 10 years we have healed a lot, he has utter faith in me and takes pride in me. After healing things for myself I opened up to my dad about drugs, smoking, depression, everything. He was very accepting. Heck he even had his life’s first drink with me when I got my first paycheck. As he is growing older (60 and bald now), I can see him turning into a small kid. He wants to be pampered. He is turning into a cranky kid and a ball of love. I hope I can share this experience with him someday.

LOVE AND LIGHT!

Experience 3

Personal opinion on macro doses

The first dose I tried was not from reliable vendor. I would not say it was not that pure as other sellers advertise. It was very weird feeling I thought it must have been weak, so I took a little too much. One of the most noticable was effects was how time has slowed. I didnt have to do anyting just sit or lay and enjoy the moment, thats something most people dont do nowadays. During the trip I thought about my life. I though about how I am too hard on myself and how it makes my life actually harder to life.

I think it was definitely first step or impulse for self acceptance. It showed my how life can be so much better without trying to be someone I am not. Obviously this is not enough to improve my life fully, but it is definitely something I can work on more easily than before.

During the trip you just think on different things than on your sober self. It just fills you with empathy and love for every living creature on this planet. The few trips I tried after were less introspective but still worth it. One time I went for about 375ug and it was bad idea. I would say the higher dose the more important is set and setting. for “self therapy” about 100-200ug is enough.

One of the best things about lsd is in my opinion the afterglow. waking up next day after trip with motivation, love and energy to “just live life” and improve your life. It is something everyone should expirience. It happens even after challenging trips full of anxiety.

This whole expirience kinda made me more interested in spirituality. I guess it might be caused by little ego desolution during trips. I have began interested in meditation, budhism. I also found out fellow Czech Stanislav Grof was researching lsd and its effects on psyche. He wrote many books. They are quite interested read. Sometimes they go too deep into esotericism, so it might not be for everyone. I feel like am less of a ateist I was before.

Studies on lsd

Science showed some prominent evidence on lsd. There is possibility to use lsd in therapy because of its introspective effects. It showed to help patients with depression, anxiety, cluster headaches, ptsd. It can help people overcome addictions. Doses around above 100ug help prevent Alzheimers disease.

I am sure there are even more proven benefits and more benefits to be proven.

Opinion on microdosing

There is pretty big community around microdosing especially on reddit. People are still not sure about dosage. It is supposed to be around 5-15ug, but people find 15ug usually too much. I personally would not go above 10ug nowadays, If I want it to be strictly microdose and not mini or musem dose.

Some benefits people usually state are more self awareness about you and your surroundings, antidepressant effects, people tend to enjoy the moment more. Improvement in cognitive function for example long term memory maybe even the other types. Just general inprovement in well-being and also a little energy boost.

I am expiriencing with microdosing myself nad could say it definitely have some effect. It is very suble like many nootropics. I would say most noticible effects are calmness, better focus, mood boost and sometimes energy, it is more like wakefulness. I would say its more benefitial for neurodivergent people like people with autism and adhd than for neurotypical people, but its worth a try for everyone. The cognitive boost might be also more visible on older people. I believe there should be done some study on older people.

My schedule is to take dosage every second day. I believe there might be very small afterglow like in macro doses but still very subtle. I am also thinking about trying every day, but I am not sure about tolerance. I dont think the tolerance is the same as with macro doses.

I would like to say to be careful about higher doses of microdosing(around 15ug) because they can amplify your emotions, so it can backfire.

I believe both macro and micro dosing is benefitial and ideal way is to combine them.

Studies on microdosing

There have been some studies on microdosing. They show polarazing results. some studies show improvements, some studies show same improvements same with placebo. It was very hard to choose right method and messure any data. These studies have many flaws there are being critized that it is very hard to messure anything when people just sit in lab and do nothing. results might be different if they live their normal life and take it for a long time, which is not done in studies.

Studies done as questionnaries where people used lsd from their own source showed success, but they cant be taken grantly because placebo is involved and there are not any empiric data. I hope there will be more studies and ways of studies to be done.